Why did I write this??

It's 1st Jan of 2011....happy birthday to cute babies who were born on 1/1/11 ...wow,so striking!
Ermmmm,this year I'm going to sit for my PMR exam-and yet,I'm still building castles in the air,still dreaming-wake up!!!!I feel bad,because I'm not so sure if I can make it.Only Allah knows the best for me..........I think my friends are smarter and more diligent than I am,but it's human nature,to feel that others are better than you,prettier than you,fairer than you and last but not least-thinner than you(haha,that's me) Hey,all that glitters is not gold and the grass is always greener on the other side.......(I can be a motivator-hehe,it's never going to happen)

Also,please substitute
I'm not like him/her
to.....
He/she is not like me!
Oppsss,forget it! I can't say it.I've learnt in TAUHID that we can't advise others if we didn't do like what we said.The consequences are unbearable,I always feel like others are better -and thinner than me....so,forget it!! Degrade yourself like usual.......yes,he/she is better than me.....haha...I'm more relieved ....I always degrade myself,I think I am a bad egg...yes,I act on what I do!!!!!No punishment will befall me.....Alhamdulillah...